Tabletop the RPG
May24

Tabletop the RPG

Here is an Roleplaying Game (RPG) I worked on a while back called “Tabletop”……unfinished but playable. Enjoy! TableTop_RPG_1st_Draft (.pdf) TableTop_Drama_Deck (.pdf)...

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It Felt Good
Dec09

It Felt Good

I preached last night. In what seemed like a life time. I preached. It felt good deep inside of my chest, my heart. It felt good. It leapt out of me like the surprising fright of a loosed jack-in-the-box. My audience attentive, listening intently, gaining understanding and insight. They affirmed what seemed like new knowledge to the three that stood before me. You could see it in their eyes and in their nods. It felt good. It was horrifying. I felt dirty, like an impostor. That feeling you get after having sex as a teenager having been told your whole life that you shouldn’t have sex, sex is bad, bad things happen after sex. I felt that sting, that horrible, shameful sting. It has not made me want to do better, to clean up my life, to “do the right thing”. To walk with Jesus once more. No, it makes me feel broken because of the echoes of the guilt programming of my clerical past. Possibly not of any one person’s doing but of the collective. That moment of preaching was involuntary like getting an erection in your 5th period math class in High School. Nothing triggered it, a pretty girl did not walk by, I was thinking about math for christ’s sake. The words were in me and projected out of me like glorious, stupendous, religious vomit. It felt good. Like some sort of verbal and spiritual masturbation and then…the guilt. I awoke to a post on my wall. “Wanted you to know I’m prayin for you. Hope all is well. God put you on my heart this mornin. Love you.” What trickery is this? What cosmically twisted words are these? I respond with a “Cool, thanks :D”. Not expressing my deep seated horror at a statement tike that. Don’t talk to the bad guy. The cosmic Daddy that delights in spanking, disciplining, hurting his children. Don’t tell on me. Damn it. He’s not even my Dad. He said he fucking adopted me. Telling me that this is some sort of greater love than that of my real Dad. This is not the God of my forefathers but that of the Hebrews. Not the kids down the street but on the other side of the fucking world. The cosmic dictator that has thrown more bolts of disaster than Zeus ever could. The echoes. The echoes. The echoes of the past ring loud and clear. “If you see anything other than a God of the compassion in the bible, then you need to re read the bible.” At every glance, every pass, every stroke of the scribes pen that...

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Kelly Pajak and I
Jan19

Kelly Pajak and I

My friend Kelly Pajak and I collaborated on this project. This is his timelapse photography, check him out at www.MountainMagickPhotography.com. He is such a gifted photographer! I recorded this piece “The Tale of Tumbling Tree” for this project with my new Native American Flute in the Key of E 432hz. Yes I actually made the flute, seen below, out of pine wood then burned the totem and body and finished with a satin polyurethane. I hope you enjoy what we put together. 😀 [Show as...

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Artem Repin Flutes
Dec20

Artem Repin Flutes

Check out this video that I did reviewing my Native American Inspired Flutes from www.ArtemRepin.com

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Super Tonic Preparation
Oct04

Super Tonic Preparation

WARNING: Nothing here has been tested by the F.D.A.. Consult a health professional before using if you are pregnant, nursing or have a medical condition. Stop use immediatly if you experience any adverse reactions. So here we go. I have been waiting for today for a while now. What is so special about today? Why, its the New Moon of course! What does that mean? That means it’s tincture making day at the Wisdom house. In my quest of becoming a Master Herbalist I will be doing quite a few of these wonderful herbal formulas. Today the family and I put together an awesome herbal recipe that has been used since medieval times, possibly before. An amazingly simple yet extremely powerful remedy for colds, flues, sinus infections, sore throats, etc.. Some have called it the “cure for the common cold” others have said it might just be the “cure for everything”. Well that remains to be seen but the bottom line is that this stuff works! Well that is according to Dr. Schulze and his version of the formula. The great thing is that you can make this at home for less than prescription anti biotics and is not harmful to your body…it’s food! What you’ll need: Habanero Peppers (Organic) Garlic Bulbs (Organic) White Onions (Organic) Ginger Roots (Organic) Horseradish Roots (Organic) Apple Cider Vinegar (Bragg’s is best) Mason Jar NOTE: I could not find any habanero peppers this time around so I used jalepeno and serrano peppers. When you cannot find the exact ingredient do your best within the same family. What we are looking for here is the most capsicum we can get because it will help stimulate blood and lymphatic flow and get the other herbal compounds to the effected areas, so do your best. We want equal parts of each ingredient for this tincture. We went with 8.8 oz as that is how much the peppers weighed. So everything else was weighed out to 8.8 oz. Once we did a rough chop and deskinning of the garlic and onions, we went to fine chopping. You can do a much smaller preparation say 1oz or much larger 20 lbs! Just make sure they are all the same weight and you are good to go. Some people say to put the herbs into a food processor…but our food processor would liquify most of this…you want it finely chopped but not liquified. Once we had the consistency needed we then took the ingredients and mixed them into a bowl. Once everything was well mixed we filled up our mason jars about 3/4 of the way full. Next we...

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In My Head
Oct01

In My Head

Most of the artists I know are introverts. They are naturally reclusive and inside of their own head constantly. Most of my friends think of me as an extrovert because I am often loud and obnoxious. However, just because someone is loud, demonstrative and sometimes overbearing in public does not make them an extrovert. One of the easiest ways that I’ve learned to detect if someone is an extrovert, introvert or a combination of the two is to test them. It is a one question test: Do you feel drained after being around people or are you energized. Or visaversa, essentially the same question: Do you feel drained or energized after spending time alone. After all the personality tests I’ve taken these two variants of the same question nail it every time, at least for me. I am an introvert. I would rather be alone most of the time it energizes me, I need it. I like to create things and I am often inside of my head most of the time. When I get around people I become the “entertainer” and it is draining, I think for me in a good way. I really feel the need to perform either by teaching, playing music, running meetings, etc. Then after being so outward and in your face I shut down and I am inside myself. This can have a detrimental effect on ones family if not tempered. I can find myself rarely telling my wife or in some cases my kids what is going on in my head. Because after I have my conversation with myself I am…well…finished. Now the very people I love most in life are in the dark about me. Things that I need to make sure I am doing is communicating…..no really communicating with my family about who I am and they need to do the same. All of us in this family of ours are introverts and on some days hardly a word may be spoken between us as we, read, ponder, play music, clean, etc. It is kind of strange but the older I get and the older my kids get the more it is smacking me in the face. Time is short…share. Share your passion, your love, your gifts, your talents, your food and drink, share a story, a hug, a kiss. Share love. So you may not be an introvert. I get that. On the other hand how disconnected are you from the people around you? You may not even realize it. The more people I see with smart phones the dumber they seem to get. I am at a coffee...

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