Kelly Pajak and I
Jan19

Kelly Pajak and I

My friend Kelly Pajak and I collaborated on this project. This is his timelapse photography, check him out at www.MountainMagickPhotography.com. He is such a gifted photographer! I recorded this piece “The Tale of Tumbling Tree” for this project with my new Native American Flute in the Key of E 432hz. Yes I actually made the flute, seen below, out of pine wood then burned the totem and body and finished with a satin polyurethane. I hope you enjoy what we put together. 😀 [Show as...

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Artem Repin Flutes
Dec20

Artem Repin Flutes

Check out this video that I did reviewing my Native American Inspired Flutes from www.ArtemRepin.com

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Alone
Sep01

Alone

I have to say that I am feeling alone, distant and even a bit reclusive. Depression springs to mind as I have been going through this time in my life. Currently: My Mom is recovering from her cancer surgery with problems. Dealing with relationship issues in regards to my Mom. The tears. My wife is unsatisfied with her job (just the fact that she has a job is unsatisfactory). I can’t seem to make enough money. The last two shows I had with my band sucked. My neck/shoulder is thrown out and I am in tons of pain. I keep running into brick walls with a recent business upstart. I need to spend more time with my kids. The time is flying by. …the list can go on. The worst part is I feel like a whiney little kid, which is then making me sink more into this shadow. A little bit about me…I am an introvert. This can be good for self reflection and discovery but also makes dark times darker and seem even more ominous. I need to find a little mountaintop and play my first nation flute…yet I cannot because it’s not here yet. FUU@#….(calm down). I am concerned about our country right now and the decisions being made that will affect my family now and in the future. I was reminded of a picture I took of my daughter a few years back (see below) along the Oregon coast. She is a loner, introspective person like me. Very out going and the center of attention (like me) when in our moods…but very much a loner. The picture reminded me of how I feel. It may not be bad or good…it just is.   The issues with my Mom keep coming up as well as the tears and brokenness associated with those feelings. It’s not that I feel lost or at a loss what what to do, it’s just me being lonely. My wife is an amazing ear and listens to me often, hugs me and loves me…but yet I am still inside myself…alone. In the midst of all of this I remember back to church days and all the, hehem, comforting words people would give. “God is Good”…”Put your Trust in God”…”God will never leave you or forsake you”…oh and my personal favorite, “It’s just a spiritual attack”. Is there truth in those words? Probably. Though often misguided, damaging, but dripping with good intent. However, life has many pains. It’s designed that way for growth and maturity. People die, loose jobs, have crises of faith…it is all part of life. Most of us want the pain...

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